everything heals

As i contemplate on what my life has become, i wondered if all the things that happened are a form of PUNISHMENT. Maybe i was bad in my previous life or just plain unlucky in love. My first marriage ended in failure. I became a single mom and i tried with all my might to provide my kids their needs. Sometimes i wake up in the middle of the night just crying because i just felt so tired… physically and mentally tired. It is no joke caring for three kids all your own. But i triumphed. Although my life was not that good i did a good job.

Years later, i remarried and i thought everything would be even better. Or so i thought. Because after fifteen years, it would end… it was a failure because of his cheating. I had to deal with a lot of challenges again and struggle with all the emotional trauma and regrets. Yes, there are a lot of regrets. All those years wasted because of his stupid mistake. I couldn’t bring back those precious time but i believe that everything heals.

Everything heals. Your body heals. Your heart heals. The mind heals. Wounds heal. Your soul repairs itself. Your happiness is always going to come back. Bad times don’t last. – LessonsLearnedInLife.

I know that it isn’t easy to achieve happiness but past relationships should not ruin future happiness. I know it is easily said than done but it would be really unfair to myself if i would not give it a try … one day at a time.

Don’t let past relationships ruin your future happiness. Scars remind us of where we’ve been not where we are going. – Unknown – TinyBuddha.com

Oh well, inspite of all the drama, i am feeling grateful about a lot of things. I am grateful for flowers around us as they help in calming the mind and the body.

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I am grateful for a little bit of cooking knowledge because i find it relaxing and at the same time fulfilling and all the food i have created and recipes invented are the CHERRY ON TOP.

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I am grateful for my wonderful cats because they always make me smile. Here’s a video of my rescued cats Ashton and Kuting grooming each other. Please enjoy!

Flower, food and cats equals happiness.

cheery and bright

Colorful, vibrant and cheery lantana flowers that lined the side walk are for the eyes to FEAST on. As i begin to photograph them a happy butterfly is as enthusiastic as me as it began to fly from one flower to another. It also feasted on their sweetness feeding on nectar.

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The butterfly is so elusive as i try to take some photos. And almost missed it.

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Yey, gotcha.. i almost missed again.

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Oops, it flew… it’s almost out of range.

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And finally, the butterfly is in the range and i guess this is the best shot.

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I looked so silly hopping from one flower to another just to take some photos but it’s fun.

Happy Wednesday! And to add brightness to your day, here’s Ashton my laptop buddy for today showing off his whiskers and his itty-bitty tongue. Please enjoy!

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the ugly frog turned into a handsome prince

Sometimes i am beginning to think that my blog is turning into a cat blog. It’s just that i wanted to share my love for these wonderful furry companions. They are my source of calmness as they ease away my tension and stress. Hearing them purr or just by stroking their smooth fur gives me a sense of well-being.

Ashton and his story.
When i rescued Ashton he was so skinny that i could see his protruding ribs, he’s wet, cold and shivering as it was raining that day. His eyes were dull, hazy and watery, his face looked so sad, had colds and wet at the bottom. My heart melted right away so i scooped him up and brought him home so i could give him a chance to live. I have never seen such a teeny-weeny kitty that rubs itself to my foot even if he fall and tumble and yet do it over and over again. Okay, that’s it. I cannot leave him there. It was as if he was begging me to pick him up and save him.

Now, several months later, he turned into a handsome prince. The DETAILS of his transformation is so clear. His eyes are now green and bright. He looks so happy now and healthy. He had defeated all his medical issues and blossomed into a perky, playful kitty. It took a lot of medication and loads of tender love and care to make him better and they are so worth it.

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The lovely thing about these two photos is that little Ashton and the bigger Ashton is sporting that same kind of cute smile. So adorable.

my journey out of the storm

I have been feeling a little bit unpleasant these past few days. Well, not because of the gloomy weather but it is because of some bumps i encounter during my long JOURNEY out of the “STORM“. As i’ve shared in one of my previous blog posts, i am in the process of moving on. As far as my feelings are concerned, i am okay, i’ve moved on. Love is long gone and there is no way for it to come back. Trust and respect are major factors in a relationship and if they’re gone, love is gone too. But sometimes, my journey is not going smooth as i want it to be. How would you feel if someone wanted you to spit out all the “candies” you have eaten and count them one by one. They are just material things. All the material things i received and enjoyed during the course of the relationship are not enough to ease away all the pain and the emotional trauma i have experienced.

Anyway, enough of the drama.

These lovely pink roses surely help to brighten up my day…

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Note to self:
I am a strong person and that no amount of negativity could shatter my journey towards happiness.

my 4-legged bodyguard

Marwind of Gershephund is actually the full real name of my German Shepherd dog. I got him from the breeder at 2 months old. On his certificate, he is registered as black and tan; sire Meghana’s Lifeline Jasper; dam Dora Von Der Nacht – daughter of PH Champ Ebby Z. Milabru. That means that Marwind is the grandson of a Philippine Champ. How cool is that.

The DARKNESS of his coat is very visible during his puppy days and as months passed, his coat slowly turns lighter and these days he is now sporting the black and tan coat.

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Above first photo is when he’s 3 months old, the second photo he’s 7 months and the third photo was just taken recently and he’s now 1 and a half years old. He (together with my rescued local dog Rafraf) is the culprit behind my destroyed potted plants. But it’s okay because i love him to bits and i guess the plants are nothing compared to his job of protecting us and guarding our home.

Marwind’s face looks naughty as compared to my previous German Shepherd JOHNNY VON KELLY. Johnny looked like a real gentleman. Oh i surely miss him.

I was feeling lazy today maybe because of the gloomy weather. How i wish i could cuddle with Ashton as he lay beside my laptop as i was typing this.

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I played with Ashton’s paw in between my blogging and i thought his black beanies are cute.

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Hello weekend:) TGIF.

they brighten up my day

Flowers make me happy. It lifts up my mood and makes me cheery. If only i could display flowers inside the house then i would be happier. But i am afraid the kitties will just make a mess of it as i have experienced having one of my indoor plants in a glass vase got broken because of their wild chasing. For now i would just enjoy taking photos.

Flowers are beneficial to a person’s emotion. I believe that it’s because of their bright colors and a connection to nature. Nature also makes us feel better as it soothes and eases our stress and anxiety away.

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There’s also one very important part of my life that always brightens up my day.. It’s Star. Here’s a photo i took of her in the morning when i woke up. She’s up and about and greets me hello with a soft meow and an invitation to caress her soft fur. Isn’t she lovely?
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Star stays most of the time in my bedroom . She is not FORBIDDEN but free to go downstairs as she pleases but she seldom stays longer. My only princess definitely hates rough play and wild chasing among the four princes. She is the mellow and laid back type and my bedroom is her peaceful refuge.

It’s #TBT or throwback Thursday. Here’s another photo of Star playing with my ipad when she’s just about 7 months old… actually we were both enjoying answering the word hunt game.

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Happy Thursday to everyone. I hope i made you smile today.  :)

rain droplets and a brick

We have been experiencing rain today due to an upcoming storm. As soon as it stopped, i took the chance of taking photos of rain droplets and here they are.

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This kind of weather makes me crave for comfort food. And speaking of comfort food, this reminds me of one of my all-time favorites… the onion brick. Yes, a very thick brick of onion rings.

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This brick consists of layers upon LAYERS of mildly spicy, lightly battered onion rings deep fried to a crisp paired with bbq sauce and remoulade. So yummy! Oh how i wish i could copy the restaurant’s recipe and cook this at home.

And here’s sleepy Tiger enjoying the warmth of my laptop. This kind of weather makes me sleepy too.

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Feeling relaxed on a cool rainy day.