lucky charm

My niece arrived home from Japan and she sent me these goodies. She actually asked me what i wanted and i said Maneki Neko. It is believed that it is best and luckier if it is to be given by someone. Well, i got what i wanted with some bonus goodies.

Maneki Neko is a Japanese cat figurine that is believed to bring good luck. Right paw up attracts money and success. Left paw up attracts customers which is good for businesses. Luckily, i think i have both as the middle kitty in my maneki neko has its right paw up.

My figurine is white and it is for happiness. Black ones are for protection, red for love , gold is for wealth, green for good health and calico or tri-coloreds are for extreme luck. I am glad i received a white one as my ultra wish is to be genuinely happy as it’s so difficult to put on a smile if deep inside the heart there are worries, pain and sadness. I need all the lucky charms in the world.

Lucky charm or not, i believe that to really achieve my dream of being happy i should start with the way i see things and find something good in everything. I should have a mindset of being positive and not be affected easily if sometimes things would not turn out the way i want it and just think of how to make it better. I should avoid overthinking as i know it would just get me nowhere. I should always start the day with a smile. And more than anything else, i should be grateful for all the good things that happened and try to bury the past, all the heartaches and pain because at the end of the day it is only me that could create my own happiness.

The Daily Post Daily Prompt: CARVE

a time to celebrate

New year marks a new beginning… a fresh page to another year. I resolve to be happy, embrace positivity, find joy in little things and just go confidently towards my goals and dreams.

Starting the year 2018 by celebrating Star’s 6th birthday.

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I have so much to be grateful for my furbabes. I just hug them and my stress magically disappears.

I have faced a lot of challenges in 2017. I hope that 2018 would be a better year. I sincerely want to have a more relaxed state of mind… to be genuinely happy and to be FINALLY free from all the negativities.

Overthinking, worrying and feeling regretful are some of the things that made my 2017 challenging. Overthinking just doesn’t get things done. It is stressful and only causes restlessness and sleepless nights. This year I should try to focus more on self reflection and to accept the fact that life is not perfect. I should not also waste my time with too much worrying as it causes too much anxieties.

May 2018 be a good one… Hello positivity, hello new dreams, hello new me.

Happy New Year to all.

 

priceless things i could afford

A Hermes Birkin designer bag is priceless for an ordinary person like me. I couldn’t buy an island nor have my own jet.  But the rich and the famous could afford them and they don’t seem to be that priceless. Lucky me, i do have priceless things that i really could afford.

Time. Yes, i could afford to live every moment of time. With so many bad decisions in the past i need to be really careful now in the choices that i make. What’s done is done and i cannot turn back the time.

Happiness. The key to achieving happiness depends upon one’s outlook in life. I may have endured a lot of challenges and problems because of a failed relationship but the power to be happy rests on me alone. I choose to be happy in spite of everything. As they say, happiness should not depend on things that we don’t have but appreciate and be happy on things that we have.

Family. I am thankful for having a wonderful family. It is a busy world and we all have our own lives to live but we do make it a point to celebrate every occasions together.

Nature. The gift of seeing nature is priceless whether it is just a pocket garden of flowers or just a tree in the yard. I love watching the birds that occasionally visit my one and only citrus tree. I love butterflies that hover from one flower to another. I love the bees that make stopovers from one flower to the next. I love watching the sky on a clear night. I love to watch the phases of the moon. Just yesterday i managed to take a photo of the sky and saw that the moon is almost full. Maybe tonight it would be.

Oh wait, i almost forgot… My cat Star is PRICELESS too.

all about love

This will be our first Christmas without my father and our second without my brother. I will be honest, when my brother passed, i literally cried buckets of tears. Whenever i think of him or see photos of him i cry. These days i still get teary eyed whenever i think of him. I really miss him so much and forever i will. But, i don’t know and i’m not sure why i did not feel the same way when my father died. Yes, i miss him… we all do but it seemed like all of us had already accepted about his passing. Maybe our sense of relief just outweighed our sense of loneliness and grieving. Now that he’s gone, it seemed like a renewal. My parent’s house is having a big renovation, all the clutter that my father has been holding on has been disposed and most importantly i noticed a tremendous change in my mother’s aura. She has been smiling a lot, stress is gone because nobody is bullying her anymore and i truly believe she is happy. Of course she misses my father but she recovers quickly.

The holiday season would not be complete without the family, love, food and laughter. Gifts come second and it is not as important to me now than when i was younger. But for the kids, they are really looking forward to it especially those coming from my sister who works abroad. As always she would be home for Christmas and be the jolly Santa Claus of the family.

I know it’s a cliche but Christmas is all about love and happy reunions.

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Sending lots of cheers… Happy Weekend.

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“I sitz here while i wait for Christmas… hey Mom, how many days til Christmas? Will you buy me lots of treats as Christmas presents?”

everything heals

As i contemplate on what my life has become, i wondered if all the things that happened are a form of PUNISHMENT. Maybe i was bad in my previous life or just plain unlucky in love. My first marriage ended in failure. I became a single mom and i tried with all my might to provide my kids their needs. Sometimes i wake up in the middle of the night just crying because i just felt so tired… physically and mentally tired. It is no joke caring for three kids all your own. But i triumphed. Although my life was not that good i did a good job.

Years later, i remarried and i thought everything would be even better. Or so i thought. Because after fifteen years, it would end… it was a failure because of his cheating. I had to deal with a lot of challenges again and struggle with all the emotional trauma and regrets. Yes, there are a lot of regrets. All those years wasted because of his stupid mistake. I couldn’t bring back those precious time but i believe that everything heals.

Everything heals. Your body heals. Your heart heals. The mind heals. Wounds heal. Your soul repairs itself. Your happiness is always going to come back. Bad times don’t last. – LessonsLearnedInLife.

I know that it isn’t easy to achieve happiness but past relationships should not ruin future happiness. I know it is easily said than done but it would be really unfair to myself if i would not give it a try … one day at a time.

Don’t let past relationships ruin your future happiness. Scars remind us of where we’ve been not where we are going. – Unknown – TinyBuddha.com

Oh well, inspite of all the drama, i am feeling grateful about a lot of things. I am grateful for flowers around us as they help in calming the mind and the body.

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I am grateful for a little bit of cooking knowledge because i find it relaxing and at the same time fulfilling and all the food i have created and recipes invented are the CHERRY ON TOP.

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I am grateful for my wonderful cats because they always make me smile. Here’s a video of my rescued cats Ashton and Kuting grooming each other. Please enjoy!

Flower, food and cats equals happiness.

my journey out of the storm

I have been feeling a little bit unpleasant these past few days. Well, not because of the gloomy weather but it is because of some bumps i encounter during my long JOURNEY out of the “STORM“. As i’ve shared in one of my previous blog posts, i am in the process of moving on. As far as my feelings are concerned, i am okay, i’ve moved on. Love is long gone and there is no way for it to come back. Trust and respect are major factors in a relationship and if they’re gone, love is gone too. But sometimes, my journey is not going smooth as i want it to be. How would you feel if someone wanted you to spit out all the “candies” you have eaten and count them one by one. They are just material things. All the material things i received and enjoyed during the course of the relationship are not enough to ease away all the pain and the emotional trauma i have experienced.

Anyway, enough of the drama.

These lovely pink roses surely help to brighten up my day…

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Note to self:
I am a strong person and that no amount of negativity could shatter my journey towards happiness.

inner peace

Our desires change during the different stages in our lives. As a kid, i simply hoped for a toy as a gift or good grades in school. As a teen, i wished to be able to finish schooling and attain a college degree. I wanted to take up Fine Arts but ended up with a degree in Accounting. I guess not all hopes  are fulfilled but i’ve learned to love my course. After graduation, i wished for a nice job. Fortunately, i was hired in no time by an airline company thus my hope of being able to travel was realized. Luckily, I have traveled to some countries as i took advantage of being single at that time and the free airline tickets from my company.

In my mid-twenties, i hoped to meet the man of my dreams and start my own family. Well, just a half of this wish became a reality. He did not turn out to be the man of my dreams, our marriage failed but i was blessed with three wonderful children.

I struggled being a single mom as i need to provide the needs and the schooling of my children. Any support from the ex is impossible because he was jobless and it was one of the reasons of the break-up and why our relationship did not work out. My hope during that time is for me to be able to have the strength to keep going just for the sake of my children’s future. As company loans are slowly getting paid and finally no deductions from my salary anymore, i felt that life became quite comfortable. I became happier and felt prettier because i am doing good as a single mom.

Fast forward to today. I think my only HOPE now is  to make myself be free from the feeling of hatred and anger and to experience inner peace. I have endured a lot of psychological pain and sufferings during my second try to be in a relationship. Being cheated on is so painful that even if it happened a long time ago i was left with so many scars. Once in a while i still feel angry but hey, i am just being human.

On a brighter note, sharing with you a photo of Boots patiently watching me, waiting and hoping for some tuna treats.

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Aww… How could i ever say no to that cute face.

Happy cat, happy me. 🙂

travel theme: poetry

I am not really good in writing poems. I have made a few but creating one depends on my mood. When i’ve learned that this week’s travel theme is all about POETRY, i tried composing one last night and surprisingly, the words just kept flowing even if i need to think about words that start with a specific letter.

My SWEETPAINTEDDREAMS

Somewhere in my mind
Whispering
Echoing
Enchanting
Tasseled
Perfumed by spring
Accented by magical hues
Inspiring
Never stopping
They glide
Empowered by wings
Dashing display of thoughts
Daintily covered by lace
Radiating its colored images
Enduring all
And yet still be tranquil
My rainbow, my hopes
Sweetpainteddreams

In our lives we stumble and we fall but dreams are there to guide us through. We face a lot of challenges, sometimes feel pain and sufferings but for as long as we are living there is hope. There is hope that we could find happiness and that there is sunshine after the rain. I believe in my sweet painted dreams.

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Ashton so sound asleep, dreaming of sweetpaintedtreats

luxury of being alone

I am happy being single again… well, still not legally single but SINGLE. I must admit that i used to be afraid about the consequences of being separated and being alone. With a little savings, i was thinking more on how i would survive. But hey, i’ve come to realize that i need not be afraid. It’s not the end of the world but rather a renewal. I think being alone is the happiest thing that ever happened to me because it freed me from stress, emotional trauma and pain. I don’t need a cheater and a liar. It is better be alone than be with someone who don’t value me as a person and not be respected. For me, cheating or having an affair is the utmost betrayal. I felt so insulted and disrespected. Anyway, as i’ve mentioned in one of my previous posts, i have moved on. I am enjoying my alone time.

After my chores are done my room is my private sanctuary. It is where i recharge and connect to my inner self. Some little belly rubs to my cat and hugs to my doggie instantly provide calmness and relaxation. And as i lull myself to sleep, thinking about future plans and dreams give me hope. It makes me happy.

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Good thoughts, relaxing moments, furry sleepbuddies equals a good night sleep 🙂 Comfort in my solitude.

This is my entry for today’s daily prompt: SOLITUDE by Daily Post.

weekly photo challenge: my 2012 in pictures

In my humblest opinion, these are my best photos for 2012. Some of these are good shots, well just accidental good shots because i am not a good photographer but every photos that i post in my blog are product of my never-ending effort to improve my skill more whether i am taking a photo of my pets, food, and scenery.

Please click the photo for the link to the original post.

January

crystal cove, boracay

February

wildflowers

March

fruit carving

April

mood ring

May

caesar salad

June

macarons

July

kittycat star @ 7 months

August

dome

September

koi

October

boracay

November

aquarium

December

paper chandeliers

The photos i’ve chosen represent the things that inspire me and interest me. I hope to continue to write all about the things that make me happy and sharing that happiness would be a wonderful goal for 2013.